I realized again today the all-knowing sovereignty of our God.

In my fear and weakness yesterday, God was working and doing exactly what he needed to do.  Xena called today and told us that she could not sleep last night (mainly because of being high) and she was ready to make a change in her life.  She wondered if our offer was still open.

We went and picked her up and she went with us to give today.  Our give today was to a friend, Alex, who is a very resourceful homeless man.  We have known him and his girlfriend for a couple months now.  They are the only “homeless” people that I know that never sleep on the streets.  They always find a way.  The thing about Alex is that he has a side to him that he does not show many people.  He is outgoing and joyful on the outside, but on the inside he is sad, confused and lost.  He is addicted to crack.

He is paralyzed from the waist down and lives his life in a wheelchair.  He told me that he hates himself because he cannot control his bladder.  He has so much shame when he stays at people’s houses and wakes up totally soaked.  He has to wear Adult Depends at all times.  He and I have had some deep conversations lately.  He knows that I can see him.

He called to ask if I could get him some Depends because he was out and didn’t want to make a mess tonight at the house he was staying.  Do I know that he did crack today?  Yes.  Do I know that he could make better decisions and buy them himself?  Yes.  Does it matter?  No.  Alex knows that I care about him to the core.  Alex knows that he can call me when he is scared, embarrassed or hurting.  Alex knows that I believe that Jesus can heal him, inside and out.

On the way back home we talked with Xena about our house, our rules and our God.

She is now staying in our spare room.  She took a shower, did laundry and drank hot chocolate.  Brittney and I laid in bed listening to her laugh in the other room while watching Princess Bride.

I don’t know how long this will last, or where she will go from here, but what I do know is that our God is in control.  I had no idea what was happening yesterday.  I forget sometimes that God is completely sovereign.  He is more beautiful than we can ever imagine.  He loves his children more than we ever could, and he will go as far as it takes to reach them.  Nothing is greater than he is.

My plans, my ideas, my passions are nothing in comparison to what he is doing.  I only need to surrender everything in every way to his desires.

He is brilliant, powerful, holy and a friend.  I am filled with only praise and awe today.  May I simply get swept up in the movement of his beautiful kingdom.

This song by Kristian Stanfill says it better than I ever could:

Your love, oh God
Displayed for us
As crimson covered
Over sinless hands
Your majesty
For all to see
In raging storms and quiet cloudless days

Beautiful Jesus
Beautiful Savior
Nothing is greater, briliant Creator
Friend of mine

You’re powerful
Above this world
The universe is under your command

Your glory shines
A holy light
That leads our hearts to praise
Your holy name is on our lips

Beautiful Jesus
Beautiful Savior
Nothing is greater, briliant Creator
Friend of mine
Perfect in power
Matchless in glory
Nothing is greater, brilliant Creator
Friend of mine

My lips will sing
My heart will bring
Praise to you, the holy King
My lips will sing
My heart will bring
Praise to you, holy!